So I wasn’t sure I would ever write about my pregnancy on my blog. I was always adamant that when I became a mum, I didn’t want to turn into a ‘mummy blogger’. I’m all about ‘faaashion darrrrling’ and I didn’t want to turn to the dark side just yet. It’s funny how things can change so quickly and I already realise that I can work and be a mum too. I get super clucky when I’m around babies and I knew that one day I would become a mum. But I wasn’t sure when that day would come. I always pushed off the idea (it scared the living hell out of me and still kind of does) because I didn’t think it was possible to be a career girl and a mum at the same time. How could I do both of these demanding jobs well?!
My hubby would have loved to have children earlier (I know he is perfection in every way). As much as I loved the idea of having a little family with him, I felt like I needed more time. I am so lucky that he has been super supportive.
So here I am at thirty-four weeks pregnant (that’s about eight months for you non-mums), sharing my journey with you to date, and no I’m not proclaiming I’m a mummy blogger just yet..
I honestly can’t believe I have made it this far. The last eight months have flown by.
For a girl that never knew she was ready to have a baby, to the moment, I saw those two bright pink lines on my pregnancy test. Everything changed instantly and I realised I have never wanted anything more. I would do anything and everything to protect this little human.
I knew straight away that something was different with my body (don’t ignore those early signs ladies) but I brushed it aside and thought I was getting my period. All the signs were there, huge sore boobs, bloating and tiredness (I was falling asleep on the couch at 9 pm and I am normally a night owl with so much energy).
Yep, this was just my period I quickly told myself and went on with life. I don’t take notice of my period dates, but as my boobs got bigger and sorer by the day, I wanted my period to come so I could feel some relief.
I did some rough calculations and realised I was probably about two and half weeks late. Hmmm, I thought that was a little strange as my period is usually regular. I didn’t think for a second I was pregnant as I have gone through times when my cycle was a little off, so I put it down to stress and we weren’t trying to get pregnant
I always thought I was going to have trouble getting pregnant. Call it a women’s intuition, but this is how I felt, Yep, definitely a glass half empty kind of girl. I tend always to think of the worst-case scenario.
It was now Sunday (four weeks no period) and I had my appointment on Wednesday to get checked out at the doctors as I knew something was wrong, I still didn’t think for a second that I was pregnant, but I knew something wasn’t right.
I had just finished early morning shooting and feeling so tired and lethargic (even though I had gone to bed at 9 pm the night before). I was rambling to my photographer about how tired and moody I was feeling and that I thought I was getting the flu. She said, “Nards maybe you are pregnant? You know what they say when you know you know”. It was a throwaway line by her and I laughed it off, but as soon as I left the shoot it stuck in my head. I definitely didn’t feel right.
I made the mad dash to the supermarket, bought the test with the Sunday paper to cover it and went through the self-checkout line. And sure enough I was pregnant. I could not believe it!! Words can’t even begin to explain how happy I felt. I called Jim straight away (he was watching the cricket at the MCG) and he couldn’t believe it. We were both so emotional and ecstatic; it was such a surreal feeling. As this little soul was ours and we made it!!
Instead of freaking out like I thought would. I had a totally different reaction. I felt like I was on a drug and high on life.
I had no idea how far along I was, but I thought it would have had to be at least a couple of weeks along by looking at how long it had been since my last period.
MY FREAKOUT STAGE
After the initial (high on life) excitement subsided, I then started thinking that something was going to go wrong with my pregnancy (you got me, glass half empty again). So I bought one too many home pregnancy tests and frantically reading all those pregnancy forums- bad move.
You have to wait until the six week mark to get the blood test results and about eight or nine weeks until they can see anything on the scan.
One strange fact I will also point out for those of you that may be a little weird like me and continue to do home tests. Your hCG hormone (which is a hormone that is specific to pregnancy) gets consistently higher in the first twelve weeks of pregnancy. Then it plateaus in the later weeks of pregnancy, that’s why our pregnancy symptoms (sore boobs, nausea, tiredness) are so crazy at the start, but then you start to feel better.
Your hCG levels can actually throw out the die in your home pregnancy tests. This is what happened to me and I freaked out!
So at week nine, I did my usual daily test and instead of seeing two pink lines, I saw one dark line!! (I later discovered it was the positive line) but the other control line was faint (like really faint). So it almost looked like only one line. I called First Response (that’s the pregnancy test company) and they explained that the reason the control line was faint is because when your hCG levels are so high it ‘pulls’ colour from the control line. Phew!!
FIRST 12 WEEKS
The best way to explain how you feel is likening it to your worst hangover (minus the fun going out part the night before). So I felt like I got home at 5 am and I was then forced to get up at 7 am and take on the day. I was lucky that I didn’t vomit but I almost wish I had that relief, with constant head spinning, headaches and queasiness
I had cravings for so much junk food in my first trimester.I have always been a carb loving girl and during this time these cravings went through the roof (hello, Bakers Delight and hot chippies) but I also craved fruit, which is strange and I have never been a big fruit eater before. I would also eat whole lemons (skin and all) with salt. I normally love spicy food and coffee but I totally went off both of them, the smell of coffee made me want to puke!
I didn’t do any exercise for the first sixteen weeks of my pregnancy. I felt a little guilty as I like to keep fit (especially if you read this post, I have been on a fitness mission) but I am a big believer in listening to your body. I barely had the energy to walk to the fridge let alone go for a walk around the tan. I did try one boxing session and that was an absolute disaster as I only lasted 20 minutes and had to go to the toilet three times as I felt like I was going to vomit.
Don’t let this scare you as I know a lot of mummas who don’t feel sick at all in the first trimester. You, lucky ladies, should definitely try to keep active. How hard you can go is all dependant on how active you were before getting pregnant. So if you were active you can maintain it, you just need to take it a little easier (but try to keep your heart rate under 140 beats per minute). Of course, I am no doctor, speak to your OB as they know your body and health best. Listen to your body, if it doesn’t feel right, listen to those signs. Long walks are a great way to get your body moving and feeling good.
THAT FIRST SCAN-YIPEEE!!!
Just before our twelve-week scan we had the option of new genetic testing (VCGS genetic screening), which can be done from eleven weeks pregnant. It has been in the US for a while but finally available in Australia. The test is a simple blood test and screens for cystic fibrosis, X syndrome and spinal muscular atrophy. We did the NIPS test at this time too which can check the baby’s chromosomes from my blood and tells us our chance of down syndrome. It’s amazing what they can find out at this early stage. This test could also tell us if we were having a girl or boy, but we decided not to find out the sex, even though the hubby wanted to, I won that battle. Hehe
These tests are obviously a very personal decision, and you need to do what feels right for you. It is our first baby, so we wanted to be reassured everything was A-Okay. Even though I totally respect anyone’s decision for not wanting to get the tests done. It is a tough call, as I can’t say what I would or wouldn’t do if the tests came back and our baby had one of these conditions.
Let’s also talk about that twelve-week scan when you see the little heart pumping hard, it is such an incredible feeling. After this scan and getting the genetic results back, I felt so much more comfortable and stopped freaking out that something would go wrong.
AT 4 MONTHS
I remember feeling really big at the four-month mark (this was when we started telling friends and family our news). Looking back at these photos, I obviously realise I wasn’t, but your body changes so much in those first few months. By this stage, I realise there are so many things that happen to your body that no one tells you about. As soon as you become pregnant you are then welcomed into this secret club and the stories start rolling in. I never realised you bleed for 40 days after having a baby, WTF?!!
So it takes some adjusting (especially when you have always had the same body). My boobs were out of control and my bum and thighs were also growing rapidly. I didn’t have a proper bump at this stage, but none of my clothes are fitting right. You just don’t feel like you at all. Of course this is fine, as your body needs to change to be able to carry your little bubba.
12 WEEKS TO PRESENT
I feel like I have had a textbook pregnancy in many ways. Just before I reached twelve weeks all my morning sickness magically disappeared, woo hooo! It was the best feeling as I started feeling like a normal human again.
Apart from a few little back issues, I have had Sciatica, which has been quite painful and has made it hard to do everything I normally could do. It eased up when I was on holidays but now I am feeling very sore again.
The fact that I continue to wear heels doesn’t help the situation, combined with my bad posture and crouching over my computer all day and night makes it worse.
Strengthening your tummy muscles and back with pelvic floor exercises and Pilates helps is one of the best ways to help it.
I started up Pilates a couple of times a week from my sixteenth week (I am going to detail this more in the coming weeks as it has helped me so much). I had been going for at least one walk around the tan every week. I recently had to stop walking because I have been experiencing intense pelvic pain (which feels like a throbbing pain in between my legs and up my thighs). Walking puts too much pressure on my body, but I have been reading that I need to keep active, so I am going to give it another crack this week.
I know it’s all normal as our pregnancy body produces a hormone called relaxin. Relaxin softens our ligaments in our pelvis and joints so we can push that baby out, and because I am coming to the end of my pregnancy, it is more intense.
I also don’t even know what sleep feels like anymore (I haven’t been able to since my sixteenth week of pregnancy), apart from these little niggles, I have been very lucky.
AT 27 WEEKS
BABYMOON AT 31 WEEKS (best decision to get away)
NOW AT 34 WEEKS
I am growing every day, and the crazy kicks and punches are getting stronger. This is one active little baby, it loves to punch my arm away if I am leaning it on my stomach, I feel like it has its own little personality already. I can’t wait to meet her/him soon.
I have noticed that being pregnant opens up women to a whole new world of criticism. I can imagine this is only going to get worse once the baby arrives as our parenting will then be scrutinised.
Before getting pregnant (and now), I would never even think to comment on a lady’s bump size, (other than to think how beautiful it is). Or to judge her on what she is eating, wearing or how much she is working. Each to their own! I have had so many rude comments from strangers on the street telling me that my bump isn’t big enough and if the doctor is okay with it?? These same strangers have also accused me of not eating enough and stating I am not the ‘normal’ size.
I have gained seventeen kilos so far. So I am definitely in the normal range and not underweight
I never take too much notice of the negative comments. There will always be haters out there, and I don’t like to give that negative energy airtime. Being a first time Mum does change the game as I started doubting if my pregnancy is normal because everything you are experiencing is new.
I brought this up with my amazing OB and he assured me, I am totally normal. Our baby has always scanned larger than the size it is meant to be. When will people realise we are all made differently, and that’s what’s make us all unique.
It doesn’t matter how many people tell you, you look great, it is hard to feel it sometimes. Especially when you need help to get out of bed, your body is aching, you can’t pull yourself up off the couch without your hubby helping you, and I won’t even mention the new liquid down there, eeeek! Then there are those days when nothing in your wardrobe fits, your hormonal and you start wondering if you can handle this whole ‘mum’ thing when the baby comes.
On other days, you wake up and feel amazing and think how blessed you are to be pregnant and wish you could stay pregnant forever.
I know not everyone is keen on showing their bump, but pregnancy has actually made me feel more confident and sexier. I look forward to sharing more soon x